It all began in Seattle Washington. I was born to a Vietnam vet and a aspiring actress of sorts. My grandparents were always close by and we (me and my sister,Sena) spent a lot of time with them. My grandfather whom we called Bopa was a D.J. and I guess was quite successful in his own right. He was damn lucky to catch my grandmother ( Nana). Boy was she a beauty. Funny she never thought so. I guess it runs in the family. Then there was my other grandmother ,we called her Gramma. I always thought she was the real grandma because we called the other one Nana. I guess we had these names for them because they thought they were too young..of course then there is the other story that my sister made them up.
I don't remember much of my childhood but bits and pieces. The memories I do have are not so nice. Mostly bad memories. A lot of abuse. It seemed I was always getting yelled at by Mom and Dad he was sadistic. I think it was on account of Vietnam but I sure didn't know that at the time. I learned that later in life . I wanted to understand my father so I was curious about the war and how it affected him.
Any way I am still trying to search for some good memories. I do remember at an early age that my Gramma was fun and good to us. But mostly my sister (Sena) got all the attention. She was the one favored.
There were times that were fun with Nana too but Bopa used to yell a lot and he would always stick his tongue out at me. Nice ,huh? Now that I think about it ,he didn't feel very secure with himself. That would account for the childish behavior. Yet he was the king of his roost or so he thought. I didn't like him! I remember this one time when we were in L.A. and per usual we were at the grandparent's and I was watching him and thinking " I Hate you". It was a strong reaction or thought...very strong. I truly felt that way. He was so mean and angry. Everything I did was wrong. God ,he always liked me to go out with him to fix the car. Boring! I guess he didn't want to be alone.Well I didn't want to be with him. I always liked it when he was gone. " Hey Bopa I hated you . Do you know that? You were a real son of a bitch! All we were is minding our own business and you, didn't like us being around." We were not allowed to make any noise.Fuck why was he so mean? He was never nice. He never cared. He did that one time. That time I had that really bad kidney stone. He was actually really nice. What A surprise.
I don't remember much of my childhood but bits and pieces. The memories I do have are not so nice. Mostly bad memories. A lot of abuse. It seemed I was always getting yelled at by Mom and Dad he was sadistic. I think it was on account of Vietnam but I sure didn't know that at the time. I learned that later in life . I wanted to understand my father so I was curious about the war and how it affected him.
Any way I am still trying to search for some good memories. I do remember at an early age that my Gramma was fun and good to us. But mostly my sister (Sena) got all the attention. She was the one favored.
There were times that were fun with Nana too but Bopa used to yell a lot and he would always stick his tongue out at me. Nice ,huh? Now that I think about it ,he didn't feel very secure with himself. That would account for the childish behavior. Yet he was the king of his roost or so he thought. I didn't like him! I remember this one time when we were in L.A. and per usual we were at the grandparent's and I was watching him and thinking " I Hate you". It was a strong reaction or thought...very strong. I truly felt that way. He was so mean and angry. Everything I did was wrong. God ,he always liked me to go out with him to fix the car. Boring! I guess he didn't want to be alone.Well I didn't want to be with him. I always liked it when he was gone. " Hey Bopa I hated you . Do you know that? You were a real son of a bitch! All we were is minding our own business and you, didn't like us being around." We were not allowed to make any noise.Fuck why was he so mean? He was never nice. He never cared. He did that one time. That time I had that really bad kidney stone. He was actually really nice. What A surprise.
