Rose is not a pseudonym, but a metaphor.
Rose is short for "Rosewater," because I wrote a poem long ago- one which I never saved or copied, but left to the aether- wherein there was a Bowl of Rosewater, which desert-wanderers would come and drink
Am I repressing something? I think I must be, because Danny is dead and I can't feel a thing either way about it. There's this thing in my stomach like when I would have panic attacks in class freshman year.
God, what the fuck? Danny was 17, and so ambitious- it's almost fitting that he's dead. That's the way of things.
So it goes, Samsara.
Today is October 3rd, 2011, and this is the only journal entry in this journal, and being the robotic multitude in tandem that I am, I had no other choice but to enter the court of my Anima, trying to find a new expression of it.
Ariadne served well.
The same reason as you are.
Sometimes I like to feel it because it's just part of fucking being alive, right? Well Samara, I'm fucking alive as I've ever been by that logic. YOU HAD YOUR FUCKING CHANCE AND NOW IT'S MY GODDAMN TURN.
Sometimes my brain just turns off but I keep doing things and that is when I feel the most like I'm human, but also the most like I'm a monster.
Rose is short for "Rosewater," because I wrote a poem long ago- one which I never saved or copied, but left to the aether- wherein there was a Bowl of Rosewater, which desert-wanderers would come and drink
Am I repressing something? I think I must be, because Danny is dead and I can't feel a thing either way about it. There's this thing in my stomach like when I would have panic attacks in class freshman year.
God, what the fuck? Danny was 17, and so ambitious- it's almost fitting that he's dead. That's the way of things.
So it goes, Samsara.
Today is October 3rd, 2011, and this is the only journal entry in this journal, and being the robotic multitude in tandem that I am, I had no other choice but to enter the court of my Anima, trying to find a new expression of it.
Ariadne served well.
The same reason as you are.
Sometimes I like to feel it because it's just part of fucking being alive, right? Well Samara, I'm fucking alive as I've ever been by that logic. YOU HAD YOUR FUCKING CHANCE AND NOW IT'S MY GODDAMN TURN.
Sometimes my brain just turns off but I keep doing things and that is when I feel the most like I'm human, but also the most like I'm a monster.
