journey. I am set on finding love. Not a crazy crush, not some unrequited and secret love for an unavailable friend-been there, done that, NOT going back...
As this new journey begins, I will allow myself to make a few changes. People claim that I can be a bit closed off, reserved, maybe even closed. Well, say hello to the new and open minded me. This new journey will not commence with hasty write offs and false assumptions.
This is not to say that I will lower my standards. They will remain high and seemingly impossible, i'll just take a closer look at the contenders for my heart before I decide that they don't meet them. Also, dear reader, I will make sure to keep you posted on my romantic progress. Any new spark or affair will be recorded swiftly and promptly for you to analyze.
I am offering myself as a guinea pig in the experiment of love. According to a quote from The Wedding Date, "Every woman has the exact love life she wants." My goal is to find out if this hope filled statement is true. I definitely do not want to secretly be in love with my best friend while he fills me in on the details of his latest conquests. Therefore, I am going to open myself to change this.
If I truly can have the exact love life that I want, and am ready to commit to a relationship, then I should have one within a month!
Oh, and Reader, I might have failed to mention something. I have a bit of stage fright on the commitment scene. As soon as the relationship starts to reach a certain level of intensity, I tend to bolt. Common strategies are unanswered calls, avoidance, and pure terror in the face of actual commitment.
This adds a bit of an obstacle to my journey, but still does not make my goal impossible to reach. I am intent on finding what many and most people spend their lives yearning for: Love. It doesn't have to be perfect; he doesn't need to be The One. I just want the experience and innocence of a first love, a first kiss. I want someone to actually love me and care about me, someone for whom I will do the same.
That is my hope, my goal.
As this new journey begins, I will allow myself to make a few changes. People claim that I can be a bit closed off, reserved, maybe even closed. Well, say hello to the new and open minded me. This new journey will not commence with hasty write offs and false assumptions.
This is not to say that I will lower my standards. They will remain high and seemingly impossible, i'll just take a closer look at the contenders for my heart before I decide that they don't meet them. Also, dear reader, I will make sure to keep you posted on my romantic progress. Any new spark or affair will be recorded swiftly and promptly for you to analyze.
I am offering myself as a guinea pig in the experiment of love. According to a quote from The Wedding Date, "Every woman has the exact love life she wants." My goal is to find out if this hope filled statement is true. I definitely do not want to secretly be in love with my best friend while he fills me in on the details of his latest conquests. Therefore, I am going to open myself to change this.
If I truly can have the exact love life that I want, and am ready to commit to a relationship, then I should have one within a month!
Oh, and Reader, I might have failed to mention something. I have a bit of stage fright on the commitment scene. As soon as the relationship starts to reach a certain level of intensity, I tend to bolt. Common strategies are unanswered calls, avoidance, and pure terror in the face of actual commitment.
This adds a bit of an obstacle to my journey, but still does not make my goal impossible to reach. I am intent on finding what many and most people spend their lives yearning for: Love. It doesn't have to be perfect; he doesn't need to be The One. I just want the experience and innocence of a first love, a first kiss. I want someone to actually love me and care about me, someone for whom I will do the same.
That is my hope, my goal.
