I really wish I didn't see his face before I fall asleep every night. It would make life so much easier for me. I always feel insulted and not good enough when he compliments other people but not me. I am going to miss him sooo much. I'm scared. I don't know what I'm gonna do when I graduate. I don't know how I'll feel being away from him. But right now, if I were to leave, I would be extremely upset. I wish I didn't care about him. I wish I hated him. I wish I COULD hate him. Why can't I love somebody else? Someone that loves me. It's not exactly fair in my book.
And then there's them. I miss them so much. I see their pictures together online, having fun without me. One of them said they don't even talk about me. I'm a rather "tender subject" apparently. I never did anything wrong. It was all a big misunderstanding and they still never would hear me out. I never thought SHE was capable of doing something so mean. I'd never fought with her! She was my BEST FRIEND. She was the nicest person I knew. You know, I often have dreams where we're friends still, or friends again. Sometimes she apologizes. Sometimes, she understands. And I wake up and it hurts to face the reality that she'll never talk to me again because of something that I never even said.
And then there's them. I miss them so much. I see their pictures together online, having fun without me. One of them said they don't even talk about me. I'm a rather "tender subject" apparently. I never did anything wrong. It was all a big misunderstanding and they still never would hear me out. I never thought SHE was capable of doing something so mean. I'd never fought with her! She was my BEST FRIEND. She was the nicest person I knew. You know, I often have dreams where we're friends still, or friends again. Sometimes she apologizes. Sometimes, she understands. And I wake up and it hurts to face the reality that she'll never talk to me again because of something that I never even said.
