I loved him. I loved him with everything I had. I thought we would be together, be so happy, grow old together, and live our lives together. I was horribly mistaken and I was extremely heartbroken. No begging or pleading was done on my part, I just sat and cried as he looked at me with those eyes that I had grown to become so accustomed to. The scar beside the corner of his right eye, the beauty mark beside the left side of his nose, those lips - the lips I would never get to kiss again. This was a moment in my life that I never wanted to have to experience. The one person I loved with all of my heart, saying he did not love me anymore. We would no longer be together. I guess being only 19 years old you could say it wasn't true love, but I know what I felt was real. I had never felt such passion and commitment towards one person, I have never cared so much for one person. I would have done anything for him. I thought "this is it. this is where it all ends". I truly believed that because I was no longer together with this boy, that my life would crumble apart beneath my feet. Oh how I was so greatly mistaken. I was upset-yes. I didn't eat for a little while, my sleeping pattern was completely off, I did not feel like a whole person, and boy did I cry. I did learn, though, that I am a damn strong person. I can get through anything. If he did not want to be with me and love me with everything he had, then damnit I would find someone else who will. Yes, he broke my heart, yes I am still healing, but I have learned from this. I have grown from this. I know that not everything in life is sunshine and rainbows, nothing will go as you planned. So, throw all of those plans out the window and hold on, because I have learned that life likes to take you on one hell of a ride.
My ride for the most part was a pretty bumpy one. Once I had finally reached a comfortable area and got used to things, life threw me another curve-ball. Times like these, though, just make you feel alive. To know that I could feel so much, to know that I could feel such immense joy, to such immense pain, solidified that yes, you are human. These curve-balls can be the most frightening, upsetting, thrilling, or down right dreaded moments of our lives, but when we get past it, when we overcome the initial shock, man do we thrive. It took losing the best thing I ever had, to realize, hey, maybe this is why I met him. This is why I felt what I did with him, he allowed me to go through one of the most difficult things I have had to