"I'm falling in love with you," you said. Or that's what I thought you said, or I dreamt it. It was so incredibly real that if I actually was only dreaming, it woke me up. You were laying there, but I don't think you were entirely asleep and I didn't have the nerve to ask you if you said something.
If you did say it, why? Where did that come from? It never occurred to me that this was anything more than a casual friends-with-benefits thing. I never thought that you wanted anything more. I thought we were both just playing the game, having fun.
Granted, it went on for a pretty long time before, but we got right back into it, didn't we? I know it's horribly cynical to wonder why you're available all of a sudden, but I can't help it. I'm suspicious of your intentions and I don't want to get hurt. (Also, did I forget to mention that I'm a little bit crazy and over-think everything? Hi. Sorry.) Part of me feels like maybe you were waiting. Did you want me to end things with him because you broke up with her? Now I'm jumping to conclusions. Awesome.
I keep trying to figure out how I feel about you. There are a lot of things I like about you: what a weirdo you are, your eyes when you smile for real, how frighteningly intelligent you actually are, the way you always go for the joke to make me laugh, a certain appendage that will remain nameless, your perpetually mismatched socks. I really feel like I was always meant to know you, in whatever capacity. And I feel like knowing me is important to you somehow. If nothing else, we have the makings of a great friendship and I'm okay with that.
Honestly, though, there are some things that I have issues with, concerning you. I'm going to have a hard time completely trusting you. I was the other girl first and who's to say there won't be another? I'm no angel myself. I've been that girl who doesn't always say no like she should, but I'm not her anymore. I don't know if that's still who you are.
I can see a change in you from that person that I met so long ago. I can tell that you've grown up a bit and dialed back some of that arrogance. It's been nice seeing you more regularly, I wasn't expecting it. But, having said that, the more time we spend together, the more likely I am to start having deeper feelings. Consider yourself warned. Then again, if you did say you were falling in love with me, it'd all be going according to your plan. You evil, brilliant son of a bitch.
If you did say it, why? Where did that come from? It never occurred to me that this was anything more than a casual friends-with-benefits thing. I never thought that you wanted anything more. I thought we were both just playing the game, having fun.
Granted, it went on for a pretty long time before, but we got right back into it, didn't we? I know it's horribly cynical to wonder why you're available all of a sudden, but I can't help it. I'm suspicious of your intentions and I don't want to get hurt. (Also, did I forget to mention that I'm a little bit crazy and over-think everything? Hi. Sorry.) Part of me feels like maybe you were waiting. Did you want me to end things with him because you broke up with her? Now I'm jumping to conclusions. Awesome.
I keep trying to figure out how I feel about you. There are a lot of things I like about you: what a weirdo you are, your eyes when you smile for real, how frighteningly intelligent you actually are, the way you always go for the joke to make me laugh, a certain appendage that will remain nameless, your perpetually mismatched socks. I really feel like I was always meant to know you, in whatever capacity. And I feel like knowing me is important to you somehow. If nothing else, we have the makings of a great friendship and I'm okay with that.
Honestly, though, there are some things that I have issues with, concerning you. I'm going to have a hard time completely trusting you. I was the other girl first and who's to say there won't be another? I'm no angel myself. I've been that girl who doesn't always say no like she should, but I'm not her anymore. I don't know if that's still who you are.
I can see a change in you from that person that I met so long ago. I can tell that you've grown up a bit and dialed back some of that arrogance. It's been nice seeing you more regularly, I wasn't expecting it. But, having said that, the more time we spend together, the more likely I am to start having deeper feelings. Consider yourself warned. Then again, if you did say you were falling in love with me, it'd all be going according to your plan. You evil, brilliant son of a bitch.
