In search of my importance in the scheme of life. Well, that's pretty important to me and evidently just a blip on the blink of someone else's grey matter. Or it could just be that nothing is important in the big scheme of things, after all, 100 years from now; all new people.
I don't ask for much and in as much I rarely turn down a request from one who needs a helping hand, a moment to vent, a shoulder to lean on, or a favor per se because I feel it's important to do if one has taken the time to ask or found the courage to admit they need your help, no matter how big or small, If it's in my realm of ability to do, I do.
Why is it then that when I feel that I'm important to someone and I do ask, on one of those rare occasions that I request help or a favor, I find that I'm not important. At the risk of sounding like this is a pity party for one, let me assure you it is not. It is just another stone turned over in the search for my importance and it obviously wasn't under this one either therefore it is only my obversation that I am still searching. The question remains.
I'd like to feel that when I'm needed I am also appreciated enough to be important in their world as well. Often I find it was all just a temporary importance that filled their need at their moment in time, I suppose. Will this change who I am and how I do things? I doubt that it will much. More than likely it will once again remind me that I'm just not important enough.
I don't ask for much and in as much I rarely turn down a request from one who needs a helping hand, a moment to vent, a shoulder to lean on, or a favor per se because I feel it's important to do if one has taken the time to ask or found the courage to admit they need your help, no matter how big or small, If it's in my realm of ability to do, I do.
Why is it then that when I feel that I'm important to someone and I do ask, on one of those rare occasions that I request help or a favor, I find that I'm not important. At the risk of sounding like this is a pity party for one, let me assure you it is not. It is just another stone turned over in the search for my importance and it obviously wasn't under this one either therefore it is only my obversation that I am still searching. The question remains.
I'd like to feel that when I'm needed I am also appreciated enough to be important in their world as well. Often I find it was all just a temporary importance that filled their need at their moment in time, I suppose. Will this change who I am and how I do things? I doubt that it will much. More than likely it will once again remind me that I'm just not important enough.
