I have been feeling raw recently for no particular reason . Raw, damaged and fragile . The last six years have been a blur . After my parents separation everything sort of went into auto pilot. When i wasn't furious with my father for wanting out of the marriage i was fuming with my mother for not standing up to his bullying.

The dust on all of that settled but am still stuck in a rut.Now i want to wash away that experience. I dont want the rest of my life to be colored by what happened then. I want to change my hair , laugh and then laugh some more . I want to make friends who will not run away because am the person that always has a crisis

AM I having a mid life crisis ?