It's just the nature of how my mind will sort of automatically (and seemingly uncontrollably) revert to these behaviors and thought patterns in relation to them that I feel takes away time and is not good for my brain/anxiety/productivity level. And I know that, which is definitely a plus. If I can just control it (and who knows how my period/hormones have affected my concentration and anxiety level as well), but if I can just use my reasoning capacity and ability to control these behaviors/thoughts and do what I know to be the right thing at the right times as best I can...I should be okay. Another big thing with me too is just NOT STRESS OUT AS MUCH. Try not to. Try to just keep calm, cool, and collected, and ENJOY MYSELF. Because I truly do love myself, and life. I don't want the stress of life to overcome or lessen that, or deflate that part of me. Bah...such is life. But the good news? My mind is