Now you think you know me, but you really don't.There's a driving force in my mind, created in a world of drugs. That force will never leave me. I dont know about "god"but theres something. Every thing happens for a reason. Ive done things that should have killed me many times, never once went to a hospital.For instance, air duster. About two days ago, a friend tells me she has two hits of the stuff. so im game, no doubt. Two hits turned into about ten total. The first six hits were so monster, man i forgot how strong that shit is. I stated drooling, couldn't stop it. Sight was gone, hearing only crazy electronic noises. Next thing i know, im sitting and everyone's asking if im alright, man i felt finnee. It took me a minute to realize i had puked on myself. The friend thought i was dieing. See i felt fine, so i did some more, haha. I puked again, man that bitterant's nasty, but its alright.

Do you see my point here? I've overdosed many times, i should have died, simple as that. I'm not trying to say immortal, if i got hit by a train id be dead. Though my career, oh it relates to every aspect of my life. I want to know, what is deeper in the brain, man these drugs bring it out. With my IQ at 148, I can control my brain in some ways. Though, what is deeper? I study my brain while under the influence, What chemicals are being released? Where are the receptors?
Once these questions are answered many doors will open. It could be a world so unreal, so easy.
This all relates to the force, there is a plan, a road for me and if i try, i will achieve my purpose here. something big is gonna happen and i know it.if there wasn't something in store, id be dead.