I've started worrying too, about when I come down there to see you. 38 days. but I'm scared I won't be how you've remembered. A lot of things are changing with me now; school, friends, exams, then things like haircuts and new mascara.. What if you don't like this slightly altered me? What if you don't feel the same any more? What then?

22:22.
I guess you know what I wish for. The same thing every day.

I was walking home from school today and I started to panic about the lack of revision I've done, because now my number one priority is being as close to you as I can over the next four years. And that means getting into a university down south, which means I really really really need to do well now. I'm past caring about costs, I just don't want it to take a 5 hour drive to see you, in a car I don't actually have. I had another idea, a really crazy one, that you actually planted in my mind a few months before you left. but it's mad, and kind of bursts some dreams but if I can't go to uni there then I'll ask you, but being with you is all I care about now, and being able to see you as much as I can.