up all night!

happy fathers day to my mom. she is my dad, no need for a male in my life. she has been both figures for me and that's all i need thank you mom.
On the other hand, its his birthday today, i've been thinking about him recently. and i hate that. i have been having many mixed up feelings lately, after these 4 years of being together, this is the longest we have been broken up. but yet we still see each other once in a while. he has some power over me, and every time i see him its as if i fall in love with him all over again. he has done some real shit to me and i always forgive him. i guess ill see what the future has in store for me and him. or maybe this is the end. i want to be in love again. it makes me so happy, i feel numb and don't give a shit and i'm also being a big bitch to M. he shouldn't deal with my emotional-ass. then again he shouldn't have confused me, by saying he didnt want anything serious, so then i stayed neutral with my feelings, then he starts saying he likes me and asks me all these questions about being in a relationship.he annoys me a times, and if i would want him to be my bf then he shouldnt annoy me this early.
on another note, i can't stop listening to DRAKE's Thank Me Later album, i absolutely love each and every song!!