This was not my plan or my intention. No. Not at all. I was supposed to have my happy , new life with my fiance . It just didn't turn out that way. And you'd think ,' oh the difference is probably nothing. They had a fight or two.' But we didn't . Not one. I changed this. Suddenly and I KNEW that THIS, what I had just chosen, was right. Was ideal . It felt good .
And no I wasn't trying to hurt him. I would have never thought to . It would only happened in my wildest nightmare . But now ; Now I see the pain on his face. The tear in his eyes. The red splotches on his face. It was just about the most satisfying thing I've EVER done. And to think I could done it sooner. oh. It hurts.But the MOST satisfying thing was look of surprise on his face. Not only had I betrayed him, but with the one he hated the most.
And no I wasn't trying to hurt him. I would have never thought to . It would only happened in my wildest nightmare . But now ; Now I see the pain on his face. The tear in his eyes. The red splotches on his face. It was just about the most satisfying thing I've EVER done. And to think I could done it sooner. oh. It hurts.But the MOST satisfying thing was look of surprise on his face. Not only had I betrayed him, but with the one he hated the most.
