Is it normal, that when I try to convince myself of being at least amateur at some things in life, I still can't think of a single thing that I legitimately excel at? I am the queen of B+ grades. So, so close to an A, but never consisting of that extra "oomph" to bump it up. I see myself as a full blown average sort of person, even when nobody else sees it. If anyone I knew read this, they would wholly disagree with my statements. They would convince me of my unique qualities, even if they were so obvious.
Being Iranian is such a definitive part of my life. It's one of the main factors of how I identify myself in a crowd. Sure, I may technically be "white" or "Caucasian", but my culture is separated from the average "white" family. I'm an exception for the fact that besides all of these facts, I am the only blonde, pale, green-eyed member of my family. I am physically unique. That's where is starts and stops, according to me.
I'm not exceptional at sports or even in my dancing. I hate the term "most improved" because that is the only title that I'm familiar with, whether it was Tennis camp in the third grade, or for Dance Team when I was a sophomore in high school. "Most improved", according to me, is "you sucked then, but now you just suck a little less to the point where we can award you for it." It's a stupid award, and every kid knows the true meaning of it. I sort of feel bad, especially some kids might need that push to improve themselves even further, but in my mind it's just a huge cinder block wall.
Besides athletics, I've always been OKAY at school. Not straight A's, actually...NEVER straight A's. I've always gotten close, but there's always a B+ in my report card. I work hard, but not really hard enough since I don't really study much. I don't really feel the anxiety to become that outstanding student. When I found out that they only gave the "good grade" awards to straight A students in high school, I laughed for roughly twenty minutes. Is this honestly real life, or am I just a Sim in God's great big game of Sims 3?
Apart from the other obvious factors including how I don't think I'm that attractive, I hate my body, and I think my friends will always be better and more successful than I am. I'm in the background. I just smile, closed lipped, hands folded, and legs crossed. I'm not sure if I'm used to it, or
Being Iranian is such a definitive part of my life. It's one of the main factors of how I identify myself in a crowd. Sure, I may technically be "white" or "Caucasian", but my culture is separated from the average "white" family. I'm an exception for the fact that besides all of these facts, I am the only blonde, pale, green-eyed member of my family. I am physically unique. That's where is starts and stops, according to me.
I'm not exceptional at sports or even in my dancing. I hate the term "most improved" because that is the only title that I'm familiar with, whether it was Tennis camp in the third grade, or for Dance Team when I was a sophomore in high school. "Most improved", according to me, is "you sucked then, but now you just suck a little less to the point where we can award you for it." It's a stupid award, and every kid knows the true meaning of it. I sort of feel bad, especially some kids might need that push to improve themselves even further, but in my mind it's just a huge cinder block wall.
Besides athletics, I've always been OKAY at school. Not straight A's, actually...NEVER straight A's. I've always gotten close, but there's always a B+ in my report card. I work hard, but not really hard enough since I don't really study much. I don't really feel the anxiety to become that outstanding student. When I found out that they only gave the "good grade" awards to straight A students in high school, I laughed for roughly twenty minutes. Is this honestly real life, or am I just a Sim in God's great big game of Sims 3?
Apart from the other obvious factors including how I don't think I'm that attractive, I hate my body, and I think my friends will always be better and more successful than I am. I'm in the background. I just smile, closed lipped, hands folded, and legs crossed. I'm not sure if I'm used to it, or
