lets see how to describe how i am feeling right now.After finding Jackie and seeing what is in my head I am ashamed that all I want to to be placed back where i was with my former friends and under my brother thumb.Here I am in control. Though I feel so out of control like I a running and hiding so much I have lost my self.My passion and fire that i once had has been smothered I need to fight back.
I was once the person who people could count on to fight no matter what. so where did I lose that? where is my passion? how did I let him take it from me all of them I have controlled my self into a barely warm bed of coals I think it is time for a wild fire to burn through this nation and whip out the dried up brush that is cluttering up this nation.
I have had a plan for a while that I have been to scared to do I thought it would affect how people see me but really it doesn't matter now. Quinn was right i need to move on from Cole even if he walks in the door today it would not matter. Do you know why? Because I am not the same girl who stood in that room in that white dress waiting to get married. When he sent me away even if it was to save me it wounded my heart and I think it took till now