I wonder how this will work. I wonder if I could truly write one page everyday. I used to be able to do it. I used to be able to spend time every day writing. I used to write everyday to a girl named Tari Johnson (now Neppl) and that was useful because I was having a conversation with her. I don't have a person who I feel I can write to, but I do have a Savior who loves me and cares about me. In some way this should go into my mac journal and just write and write there, but there is something appealing of writing here too. It will remind me to try to do it. I used to be able to write a lot on a daily basis. I used to think I had something to say. I don't think I do any more. But I wonder if God could use me and give me something to say. One of the nice things about this is maybe I can use it at work. Maybe I can write here and well be able to keep it someplace instead of having to do the email everything home.

Today things are going relatively well. It is the first time in a long time where I actually feel pretty well. My body is actually not rebelling against me. I am happy about that.

I have been spending a time thinking about God and thinking about the difference between what I know and what is! I have been thinking about the implications of not knowing who God is...