Today I woke up dazed. To much of nothing is running through my head. I have to deal with the bank because I got scammed...I don't understand. I don't understand how this world works. This world to me is a false fantasy we were living in. It's full of things and we don't need, then those things we don't need turn into things we want, which turns into trash around the house and wasted money...so do yourself a favor and leave that cool shiny thing on the shelf at the store because you don't need it. I just don't understand this world anymore its so annoying how everyone is a the way people live...
If I win the lotto or get rich for any reason at all I am just picking up and leaving and not tell anyone where I am going...that would be my perfect fantasy. Just knowing you only knowing where you is would be so relaxing and carefree. Just to get lost by yourself but know exactly where you are would be incredible. It's gonna happen...Im gonna make it happen.
Until then, I need to follow the guidelines of life and cheat the system along the way...and eventually I'll make it to my Utopia.
Also, next year people are really gonna start going away to college be doing there own thing and I won't see them as much...I can't say I'm really gonna miss anyone to the point where I'll just lose my mind, but I will definetly miss my best guy friend. I don't care if we don't end up together I care about him leaving me. I won't be able to just call him to hang out or drive around or even run errands with me. He won't be there to sing and play his guitar for me anymore, he won't be there when I have trouble with my car, he won't be there to go snowboarding with, he won't be there when I need a ride to work, he won't be there when I need to talk, he won't be there when I need a ride home late at night, he won't be there, he won't be here...but I will always be here if he needs me. I promise you that.
These changes that are happening arn't just in my life, there in everyone's and just like everyone else I need to find a way to move on. I did it before I can do it now, even though it might take more time, but I'll find a way to fight through it; like I always do, I'll find a way to make it to where I wanna be; like I always do, I'll take the punches and pick myself up when I fall; like I always do, and I'll miss you and wish it worked out and find a way to forget about how perfect we would be; like I always do, and I'll stay where you need me and answer your call; Like I Always Do.
If I win the lotto or get rich for any reason at all I am just picking up and leaving and not tell anyone where I am going...that would be my perfect fantasy. Just knowing you only knowing where you is would be so relaxing and carefree. Just to get lost by yourself but know exactly where you are would be incredible. It's gonna happen...Im gonna make it happen.
Until then, I need to follow the guidelines of life and cheat the system along the way...and eventually I'll make it to my Utopia.
Also, next year people are really gonna start going away to college be doing there own thing and I won't see them as much...I can't say I'm really gonna miss anyone to the point where I'll just lose my mind, but I will definetly miss my best guy friend. I don't care if we don't end up together I care about him leaving me. I won't be able to just call him to hang out or drive around or even run errands with me. He won't be there to sing and play his guitar for me anymore, he won't be there when I have trouble with my car, he won't be there to go snowboarding with, he won't be there when I need a ride to work, he won't be there when I need to talk, he won't be there when I need a ride home late at night, he won't be there, he won't be here...but I will always be here if he needs me. I promise you that.
These changes that are happening arn't just in my life, there in everyone's and just like everyone else I need to find a way to move on. I did it before I can do it now, even though it might take more time, but I'll find a way to fight through it; like I always do, I'll find a way to make it to where I wanna be; like I always do, I'll take the punches and pick myself up when I fall; like I always do, and I'll miss you and wish it worked out and find a way to forget about how perfect we would be; like I always do, and I'll stay where you need me and answer your call; Like I Always Do.
