He told me once, how being an adult means being able to keep a secret, cus you know kids like to blab, its like so immature, people dont know how to keep a secret these days. Not everybody needs to know your business. You feel me? I totally understood at the time. It was for real. Everybody talked about everything just to brag. I didnt need to be doin all that. I was more mature than that. I knew how to keep a secret.
You know what. I'm 23. I am an adult now. And girl, i'll tell you, adults cant keep secrets neither. adults talk to each other. they communicate. it aint all hush hush. or sometimes it is, but for real, that stuff he told me. It wasnt legit. He just didnt want anyone to know. I notice now how he never wanted to be seen in public. You always go over his house, huh? Have you ever been out together? ...No? Yeah...
Oh, i know, i know, girl. its a pretty good excuse. working from home, i get it.
He told me good ones too, told me i was smarter than girls my age. didnt act my age. I was more of an adult. could make my own decisions. Strong. knew what i wanted.
girl, if only i could go back, i'd run as fast as i could in the opposite direction.
listen, for real, i know you looking for a friend, someone who gets you, who loves you. but these guys, these men, they aint that person. They act real good. and damn, soemtimes they look real good, not like those ones we see play in the movies and on tv. They look normal and shit. They got normal jobs, they even got real friends. close with their family. it all looks legit. But they got a problem. Whether or not you're smart, they dont see that. Because in the end, its the age they want. Not the maturity. They use words to manipulate us into thinking whatever we want to think, because they want our bodies. Our 15 year old , 16 year old, 17 year old child-like, not-yet-a-woman bodies. When they know thats all we want, to be seen as a woman.
But its no good, because by the time you turn 18 and realize hes asking about your younger friends, you know. You know its him. Its always been. then you'll feel sick,and honey i dont want you to go through that pain, that sadness, that fear, that self pity, and scrubbing of the skin and afraid to go in again. its rough and you'll save yourself a lot of trouble later on in your mind heart and body if you just wait... just wait for someone who isnt a pedophile.
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You know what. I'm 23. I am an adult now. And girl, i'll tell you, adults cant keep secrets neither. adults talk to each other. they communicate. it aint all hush hush. or sometimes it is, but for real, that stuff he told me. It wasnt legit. He just didnt want anyone to know. I notice now how he never wanted to be seen in public. You always go over his house, huh? Have you ever been out together? ...No? Yeah...
Oh, i know, i know, girl. its a pretty good excuse. working from home, i get it.
He told me good ones too, told me i was smarter than girls my age. didnt act my age. I was more of an adult. could make my own decisions. Strong. knew what i wanted.
girl, if only i could go back, i'd run as fast as i could in the opposite direction.
listen, for real, i know you looking for a friend, someone who gets you, who loves you. but these guys, these men, they aint that person. They act real good. and damn, soemtimes they look real good, not like those ones we see play in the movies and on tv. They look normal and shit. They got normal jobs, they even got real friends. close with their family. it all looks legit. But they got a problem. Whether or not you're smart, they dont see that. Because in the end, its the age they want. Not the maturity. They use words to manipulate us into thinking whatever we want to think, because they want our bodies. Our 15 year old , 16 year old, 17 year old child-like, not-yet-a-woman bodies. When they know thats all we want, to be seen as a woman.
But its no good, because by the time you turn 18 and realize hes asking about your younger friends, you know. You know its him. Its always been. then you'll feel sick,and honey i dont want you to go through that pain, that sadness, that fear, that self pity, and scrubbing of the skin and afraid to go in again. its rough and you'll save yourself a lot of trouble later on in your mind heart and body if you just wait... just wait for someone who isnt a pedophile.
copyright.bobthegirl.2011
