Tuesday, April 27th 2010 3:33 A.M.
I'm writing this page because I need to get some thoughts written down somewhere. I wonder where all my thoughts go anyway, this seems like a suitable place for them and now I don't have to wonder anymore. One less thing worry about.
This page is for any thoughts, emotions, ideas, or just things I've done that day. Pure and simple, nothing to major, nothing to hard to grasp just thoughts.
Lately things have been hard, I fucked up. I can admit it, I'm an adult, I'll be nineteen May 23rd. I haven't done as well as I am capable of doing here in Greenville. I told myself before I came here I wouldn't fuck up like everyone else at ECU. I just need to hold it together and do better next semester. I'm still going to live on campus and most of my friends, who I can honestly say have been my distraction, will be off campus. My mom will just have to come to terms with the fact that it was my first semester and I just have to get used to the mechanics of this place. I've done better than most in their first semester at the Playboy's Number 5 party school in the country.
I don't want to be a nursing major anymore. But I don't know what I want to do anymore either. It fucking sucks. I need some help. I need to be pointed in the right direction. It's bad when someone my age still doesn't know what they want to do with their lives in this day and age.
My generation is manipulated. They say the most manipulated generation of them all. That may be the problem. We are receiving information from all directions at an exponential rate. No wonder we all try to live up to everyone else's expectations. We can't escape the public eye. Facebook, Myspace, I had to make a damn twitter account to make any use of this website.
Thats it for now. I need to sleep. Thats another issue I'm having. If I could sleep like a normal person I wouldn't be doing this bullshit.
I'm writing this page because I need to get some thoughts written down somewhere. I wonder where all my thoughts go anyway, this seems like a suitable place for them and now I don't have to wonder anymore. One less thing worry about.
This page is for any thoughts, emotions, ideas, or just things I've done that day. Pure and simple, nothing to major, nothing to hard to grasp just thoughts.
Lately things have been hard, I fucked up. I can admit it, I'm an adult, I'll be nineteen May 23rd. I haven't done as well as I am capable of doing here in Greenville. I told myself before I came here I wouldn't fuck up like everyone else at ECU. I just need to hold it together and do better next semester. I'm still going to live on campus and most of my friends, who I can honestly say have been my distraction, will be off campus. My mom will just have to come to terms with the fact that it was my first semester and I just have to get used to the mechanics of this place. I've done better than most in their first semester at the Playboy's Number 5 party school in the country.
I don't want to be a nursing major anymore. But I don't know what I want to do anymore either. It fucking sucks. I need some help. I need to be pointed in the right direction. It's bad when someone my age still doesn't know what they want to do with their lives in this day and age.
My generation is manipulated. They say the most manipulated generation of them all. That may be the problem. We are receiving information from all directions at an exponential rate. No wonder we all try to live up to everyone else's expectations. We can't escape the public eye. Facebook, Myspace, I had to make a damn twitter account to make any use of this website.
Thats it for now. I need to sleep. Thats another issue I'm having. If I could sleep like a normal person I wouldn't be doing this bullshit.
