sleeping next to him blurting out the play by play of the nonsense in my head. someone messing with me and someone singing to me, he gets scared and i tell him i wont talk about them anymore. they still speak after but less constant and we fall asleep keeping each other warm as his freind lay on the hard yet comfortable floor.Apparently its normal, it's just my mind playing tricks on me, i just think scitzophrenia will make me cool. right? a familoy renunion is tomorrow and i have to dress nice for a crowd of people who dont know me and which i will never see again, bunch of fucking gossipers. but all in all its for a good cause. what if i said everything out loud that went on in my head, would i be crazy then or still just plain fucking normal.i'm not mad right now, at this particular moment. she's yelling at him as the fetus roams and hears the outside dry world. i wonder if it's a girl and what it will look like. i broke out because of swiss chocolate, gummo is thw weirdest movie i've seen. it's cold and i want to play video games.
i shall see how this week goes the classes i take are all interesting in some way, especially psychology.
family reunion today and everyone is all dolled up, my little sister is enjoying all the makeup on her while her mom is not around. i wonder what my drugged out cousin is going to act like. maybe i'll get drunk or stoned, i've been wanting to taint with the marijuana again for some time now. everyone makes it seem so taboo when in reality it's as casual as smoking a cigarette and social drinking. maybe it really will be legalized soon. all those times in dobby's garage drinking and smoking for free most of the time. there was one night that we had smoked so much, everyone's eyes lit when someone annouced they were going to take a trip to mcdonalds. it was pure silence (with occasional paper crumbling), while everyone chowed down on the most delicious cheeseburger that their taste buds would have ever tasted. i have had two victorious burger's in my whole life; the one in dobby's garage, and the accidental one at carl's jr.
junior year, it must have been everyday after school that adriana and i went to carl's jr after tennis practice
i shall see how this week goes the classes i take are all interesting in some way, especially psychology.
family reunion today and everyone is all dolled up, my little sister is enjoying all the makeup on her while her mom is not around. i wonder what my drugged out cousin is going to act like. maybe i'll get drunk or stoned, i've been wanting to taint with the marijuana again for some time now. everyone makes it seem so taboo when in reality it's as casual as smoking a cigarette and social drinking. maybe it really will be legalized soon. all those times in dobby's garage drinking and smoking for free most of the time. there was one night that we had smoked so much, everyone's eyes lit when someone annouced they were going to take a trip to mcdonalds. it was pure silence (with occasional paper crumbling), while everyone chowed down on the most delicious cheeseburger that their taste buds would have ever tasted. i have had two victorious burger's in my whole life; the one in dobby's garage, and the accidental one at carl's jr.
junior year, it must have been everyday after school that adriana and i went to carl's jr after tennis practice
