Sunday November 14th 2010,
today i went to the brooklyn musueum with max. we went to the mummy exhibits and it was pretty fun. alot of dee meaningful conversation like about the meaning of lid=fe and why do people do what they do. we also spoke about what being high feels like and how we feel awkward sometimes and focus intently on some things. we then somked in the park. it was kindof weird for me i felt like a stranger in my own skin. ten when i got home i had the absolute honor of having carol be really mad at me. i feel very lonely and unappriciated. how do i fit in in this world. what is my place here ad how do i find it? is there even a place for me, when will i stop feeling so weird?
maybe i am just lonely. my mother is always there for me but my brother makes me want to stab a baby. my father is just a sad clueless old man with the best of intentions. everything seems to go wrong for him. he can never seem to catch a break.
the way i feel right now is sad and lonely. i have been looking for son long for some glimpse of happiness ad i am yet to find it. is love and joy an illusion. do we pretend to smile and then go right back to baseline when we are done. what s the real purpose for everything amd will i ever find it. people much smarter then me have seeked out this answer and i dont know of a definite answer so mine has got to be just as bad if i ever figure it out.
oh what to do
and on that note why do i sould so whiny?
ugh even i bother myself most of the time. im going to write a paper for professor faireys class on jersey shore and the decline od american contemporary culture, wish me luck!!
the goal for this month is to find a guy who likes me. well of course i have to like him back but if im talking to him then its sort of a given. is that a bad thing?
maybe ill find my mystery man tomorrow!
Monday November !5th 2010
Today was very stressful but thats not unexpected. i studied for thursdays chemistry exam and im kind of scared. Now its off to do a history paper, a bio powerpoint and an english assignment in addition to more chem studying. wow school is stressful, i didnt even have any between class ligs today because A. im broke and B. there was no time. funny story- i went to the doctor today... i still go to a pediatrician and when i took my jacket off i remembered that i was wearing the bright yello
today i went to the brooklyn musueum with max. we went to the mummy exhibits and it was pretty fun. alot of dee meaningful conversation like about the meaning of lid=fe and why do people do what they do. we also spoke about what being high feels like and how we feel awkward sometimes and focus intently on some things. we then somked in the park. it was kindof weird for me i felt like a stranger in my own skin. ten when i got home i had the absolute honor of having carol be really mad at me. i feel very lonely and unappriciated. how do i fit in in this world. what is my place here ad how do i find it? is there even a place for me, when will i stop feeling so weird?
maybe i am just lonely. my mother is always there for me but my brother makes me want to stab a baby. my father is just a sad clueless old man with the best of intentions. everything seems to go wrong for him. he can never seem to catch a break.
the way i feel right now is sad and lonely. i have been looking for son long for some glimpse of happiness ad i am yet to find it. is love and joy an illusion. do we pretend to smile and then go right back to baseline when we are done. what s the real purpose for everything amd will i ever find it. people much smarter then me have seeked out this answer and i dont know of a definite answer so mine has got to be just as bad if i ever figure it out.
oh what to do
and on that note why do i sould so whiny?
ugh even i bother myself most of the time. im going to write a paper for professor faireys class on jersey shore and the decline od american contemporary culture, wish me luck!!
the goal for this month is to find a guy who likes me. well of course i have to like him back but if im talking to him then its sort of a given. is that a bad thing?
maybe ill find my mystery man tomorrow!
Monday November !5th 2010
Today was very stressful but thats not unexpected. i studied for thursdays chemistry exam and im kind of scared. Now its off to do a history paper, a bio powerpoint and an english assignment in addition to more chem studying. wow school is stressful, i didnt even have any between class ligs today because A. im broke and B. there was no time. funny story- i went to the doctor today... i still go to a pediatrician and when i took my jacket off i remembered that i was wearing the bright yello
