Hah.
That was weird.
Guess I should have seen it coming - I mean, it's been coming to my certain demographic, and they're both within tagging distance of it.
So, yeah. Maki, out of nowhere, said "I'm sad".
I was so surprised, i looked up and had to repeat what she said. I thought maybe I misheard her.
"Sad", she said again.
Ah, yeah... Sure.
"Me too", seconded Joy.
Knock me over with a feather, you could have.
Then I had to admit I've been that too, lately.
It must be age. And the new year.
A new year forces you to look back and evaluate your life, make a tally of what you've done so far versus what you once imagined you would have done by now.
The age tells you you've now a lot less time to do them.
My day now begins and ends with a checklist. I have to write everything I need/want.
Example: shoot, call credit card, pay water bill, buy flavored soy milk. I do this, mainly, to feel I've accomplished something, however mundane or inconsequential.
Because if I don't, if I don't have a list of to-dos, I'd just spend the rest of the day inside the apartment with the curtains drawn, the door deadbolted, finishing three days worth of food in an afternoon and watching the same Supernatural season 4 over and over. Some days i'd feel more reckless and watch the episodes non-sequentially.
Ah, me.
How did i get here?
That was weird.
Guess I should have seen it coming - I mean, it's been coming to my certain demographic, and they're both within tagging distance of it.
So, yeah. Maki, out of nowhere, said "I'm sad".
I was so surprised, i looked up and had to repeat what she said. I thought maybe I misheard her.
"Sad", she said again.
Ah, yeah... Sure.
"Me too", seconded Joy.
Knock me over with a feather, you could have.
Then I had to admit I've been that too, lately.
It must be age. And the new year.
A new year forces you to look back and evaluate your life, make a tally of what you've done so far versus what you once imagined you would have done by now.
The age tells you you've now a lot less time to do them.
My day now begins and ends with a checklist. I have to write everything I need/want.
Example: shoot, call credit card, pay water bill, buy flavored soy milk. I do this, mainly, to feel I've accomplished something, however mundane or inconsequential.
Because if I don't, if I don't have a list of to-dos, I'd just spend the rest of the day inside the apartment with the curtains drawn, the door deadbolted, finishing three days worth of food in an afternoon and watching the same Supernatural season 4 over and over. Some days i'd feel more reckless and watch the episodes non-sequentially.
Ah, me.
How did i get here?
