There's just something about him that makes my world go crazy. I sit here at my computer night after night, waiting for him to say one word to me. And when he does, I can't help but just smile constantly. I've known who he was for a long time, I just never actually met him in person, never really cared to, but now, I want nothing more than to just be by him. We can sit on the computer and talk about almost nothing and still be intrigued by every word that comes up on he screen. I haven't felt like this in a long time. I'm happy. I've never had a guy come into my life, where not only do I want to get to know who they are as a person but also explore sexually. Usually, the guys I fall for I can see one or the other. Either I can see myself being in a long term relationship, or I see myself just becoming sexually involved with the person. But with Julio, its different. I can see both aspects and it makes me really happy. He used to call me miss, which I thought was really cute. I've never been called that before so I thought it was really sweet. Then he called me boo. And now he calls me babe. I'm a sucker for a guy who is willing to call me babe or boo or even baby girl. I'm not really sure why. I think its because I associate those nicknames as terms of endearment and when they say that they are subconciously telling me that they care about me deeply. I know thats not always the case but it still makes me feel like I butterflies in my stomach just fluttering around like they're dancing to the rhythm of my heart. I'm just so happy that I can't even contain it. He just makes me so giddy inside and I don't even know what he's doing to make me feel the way I do. Just to clear things up, I'm not in love with him, but I can definately see myself falling in love with him. He just seems like the kind of guy that will treat me right, the way I deserve to be treated. All my past relationships have gone south in some way shape or form. But with Julio, I think he can be the guy to show me what real real love is. I mean I know love from Joey but that was a one sided love. I think that with Julio, it can be a two sided love, where he loves me as much as I love him. I can really see myself being happy with him. And that's something that I've wanted for such a long time. It's like the one thing I want to come true from my dreams. I don't care if he has money. I don't care if he's extremely handsome or just cute as a teddy bear. I don't care if he has emotional issues. As long as he loves me for who I am. I'm not a materialistic person, I'm more so the sentimental type. I want things to mean something. Not just another memory thrown in the back of my head but a memory that will last a lifetime. Thats what I want, and I believe that Julio can bring that to my life. :]

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