I'm a hopeless, helpless girl. I'm forever dependent.I long for...a life....but I'm spineless, I'm weak...I can only voice my thoughts through a keyboard, a screen. I don't know what to do..I only know that I feel...like I never get what I want. all i know is that I don't wanna feel like this anymore...scare in my own skin...I'm a completely different person here...and I cant stand that..I cant..I just want to be able to be me and not be scare of what may happen...I want to feel comfortable in my own home......I don't want this anymore...but how can I stop it..