I love this man. Maybe that's too soon. I don't know anything about him but yet, I am putting my life in his hands as we plan for a trip to a place I've never been. New man, new place and this is all crazy. I wish I knew what I was doing but I don't. I feel like I am in love for the first time in a long time. I know his name, his favorite place to eat, his bedtime habits and I've met his brothers but I wish I knew more. Knew more about this man who is going through a small private hell just to be with me. Who risks his livelihood, his job, just to be with me. His smile warms my heart and his eyes stare deep into me. He is kind and caring but also sassy and sarcastic in a funny kind of way. He gets ticked at silly things but none of this bothers me. I love spending time with him. I love being around him because he is mysterious. Its as if I'm living a mystery novel, only there isn't any murder to solve, just the life of this man who adores me. I wish to get it right this time because something in my head is telling that this is right. That even thought we had sex earlier than most couples and before we even said "i love you", that this is what I need in my life. Perhaps this man is my soul mate and I am the luckiest girl in the world. Don't screw this up!!! We learn from our mistakes and I hope that I have learned enough to know how to make this relationship work. If you are reading this, you are probably thinking that I am crazy for even posting this or even writing this or doing this in the first place. Maybe I am, but as said earlier, it feels right and I am happy. I am happy to be with him, right now, in this moment. I can't help but love the things that he does. For example, he researches everything!! and I mean everything. He will look up the most meaningless things just to know it but its adorable. I love how well informed he is about everything. He is a hard worker, something I've never had the pleasure of being with. He is a great lover and can go for awhile, another pleasure I've never had. He loves to be active and has a beautiful heart. He helps anyone he can and is always thinking of others.