I have decided. I have decided that while this is not an instantaneous development, there are more ulterior motives at work in this present moment in time. And while I recognize the nature of these ulterior motives, I have deemed them to be indecipherable. I have chosen to not pay attention. I have decided that there is some sort of mandate that I must obey in order to attain a state of contentment. I have decided to ignore my emotions and leave various issues unresolved in favor of academic competence. I have decided that even though civility has made a great impression upon my sensitive anatomy, by mandate, I must maintain such civility in favor of civility. To engage in such unscrupulous behavior while the academic affairs obtain no semblance of structure, would be deemed irresponsible and not in conjunction with my inner mandate.

I have decided that the vicissitudes of life will repeat itself. That somewhere in the near future, our anatomies shall intersect once again, albeit upon this occasion, the arrangement shall not be as civil. Irrationality shall then dominate at this stage in our respective lives. I have decided that there could be no one else that is even of approximate suitableness that might parallel the innocuous nature for which I regard him so. I have decided that the discrepancy in intellectual ability possesses no power over my anatomy, for he has already decided to disregard that sentiment in favor of such irrationality. The discrepancy in intellectual ability should possess no jurisdiction over these mutual sentiments. I have decided that the location shall not be luminous, but instead shall be clandestine, and in a populated city. But a great city should not be confounded with a populated one. I have decided to escape the campus that I will call my home, and run to the nearest caffeinated beverage establishment and proceed to the opaque, transcending the transparent. I have decided that perhaps he shall be the one whom shall possess the most sacred quality.

I have decided to wake up every day in the hours of the morning, sit my posterior upon the cushioned chair, and formulate my future through the power of the written page. I have decided to focus my mental efforts upon matters of greater significance, because I have been mandated to perform as so. I have decided to be content and satisfied with this mandate, because these irrational sentiments are fleeting, while the focus of academia is more permanent. I have decided to equitably transcend the opinions of others and the negative opinion of myself. For the only opinion that is of significance anymore is possessive of a supreme power and the parental and filial units. The only opinion that shall have any substantial effect upon my being will that of myself, with input from the external environment.