unrelenting disappointment I face each and every time I step into that office. I need to push myself further, and be able to understand why my education is important to me - not for any approval, not for any sort of personal gratification for being looked upon as successful, but because I did it on my own. God will be there for me, and I want to keep him. But I need to be empowered to worship and use my talents to honor him, and grow as an individual. This is the way it needs to be, and everything that I've seen in life thus far.
February 26, 2012
Been a long time. Hard to account for the amount of time that's passed since I last wrote in this - seems like so much has changed, and lots of progress in the next piece of my life. Sometimes, I just wish I could let things slow down again, but I know that those days are long gone.
I feel so tired of life, and the sense of angst is returning after these last five months. I wonder if this is the point of living and growing up in a big city - the sense of detachment from people, in terms of being independent and getting older. 25 years old now.
One of the more disconcerting things that I've realized in the last few years has been how attached life has become to Access. And how I continue to feel stress as a result of work, and it's never-ending toll on my personal life. And yet, who is to blame for that? My employees - or myself? I feel disjointed for reasons unknown, other than me ultimately feeling helpless and a slave to responsibilities and activities.
Reading that article today made me realize just how much things have progressed in a manner that is just totally different from where I expected to be when I first began.
Is this it? There's gotta be more, and I guess that's where additional direction is going to be needed. For planning:
Big trip planning - next steps on vacation timing
February 26, 2012
Been a long time. Hard to account for the amount of time that's passed since I last wrote in this - seems like so much has changed, and lots of progress in the next piece of my life. Sometimes, I just wish I could let things slow down again, but I know that those days are long gone.
I feel so tired of life, and the sense of angst is returning after these last five months. I wonder if this is the point of living and growing up in a big city - the sense of detachment from people, in terms of being independent and getting older. 25 years old now.
One of the more disconcerting things that I've realized in the last few years has been how attached life has become to Access. And how I continue to feel stress as a result of work, and it's never-ending toll on my personal life. And yet, who is to blame for that? My employees - or myself? I feel disjointed for reasons unknown, other than me ultimately feeling helpless and a slave to responsibilities and activities.
Reading that article today made me realize just how much things have progressed in a manner that is just totally different from where I expected to be when I first began.
Is this it? There's gotta be more, and I guess that's where additional direction is going to be needed. For planning:
Big trip planning - next steps on vacation timing
