I don't know. I just don't know yet. Sometimes when I see you, I feel so elated and happy, and when I don't I feel like my day is incomplete. Sometimes I imagine us together, what that would be like, how it would feel. In my head it feels amazing, it feels right. But in reality, I still don't know. I don't know if you have ever thought of me in that way, or if you ever could. If you're equally confused as I am, or if you simply see me as a friend. I know that if it came up, I would never say no to you. In fact I think that you'd have to be pretty stuck up and stupid to say no. I know you're not big on speaking about this kind of thing. I know, probably more than anyone, how hard it is for you to work up the courage to say it, but I have this tiny hope that with me it might be different, because you trust me with so many other things already. Or maybe that's precisely why it's so difficult. Or maybe I'm just imagining all of this and it has simply never crossed your mind.
All I know is that you make me feel. And that is both surprising and scary. And also wonderful. You make me feel real. But few of us have the courage to be really in love without encouragement...

I'll wait. Maybe one day I'll get us both drunk and hope I don't say anything too stupid. I probably won't do anything at all, because if there's one person who is more insecure and inexperienced than you at this kind of thing, it's me. I have absolutely no idea how this is suppoesed to happen. And I don't think I could ever risk bringing it up, beause the results could be disasterous. I'm really lost here.

But I like the feeling I get when you're in my head. I just don't know if that will translate into reality.
I hope I get to see you toomorrow.