i dont know if i can take it anymore!!! im going crazy in my own home, and yet in my mind as well. the work the stress, it all falls around me. you think one thing is about to end so you get a moments peace and another thing starts. class finishes. no more college, no more teachers and asignments. but tomorrow... tomorrow i must call to attend a new college... this one isnt good enough anymore. already taken all the classes, already gotten a degree, yet it isnt high enough for the real world. the world that wants everyone older, wiser, more experienced. where do you get experience if no one gives you a chance? you try, you fail. you get back up, someone else steps in front of you and you fail again. its a repeating cycle that just wants to throw you down. so just how do you get up? how so you reach just that lowest bar of the ladder before you can even think of climbing?
just the ramble of the day...

a wall, no door, no window, no light.
only a wall, no way out.
no way back either.
couldnt turn around,
couldnt ask for direction,
help was out of the question.
to find ive gone down the wrong path,
to finally figure where i messed up
to realize that theres nothing to do to save me.
i want a chance a choice, a savior.
wheres the exit of this maze.
wheres the door, the light, the escape.
the walls start to surround.
still no way out.
now i feel like im suffocating.
not a cubicle of work.
not just the paper walls of school,
but the fire of life.
what happens when that fire meets the paper walls?