Today I'm thinking about... The reason I sleep more or less. It's different depending on my mood or the day - hot, cold, gloomy, sunny... It all factors in to how tired or awake I am. Sometimes I even sleep just because I'm bored. Silly reason to sleep, huh? When I was younger, I used to sleep as little as possible. I felt like it was a big waste of time. Just like I thought showering, driving, and other mundane, yet necessary activities were. The thing is, it was probably my overall least "important" time in my life. I was in college and pretty much just went to class, watched TV, and played online. It was such a waste of time, but it was a time for me to do whatever I wanted and just think about what I wanted out of life. Maybe I didn't do the typical "college thing" like other people did, but I don't think everyone's college experience is the same... I think overall, college is just a time to do whatever you want. So what if you sleep until noon if you don't have class that day? So what if you stay up all night doing nothing? It doesn't really matter. Responsibilities are minimal during this time. I wasn't the type that went out and partied... I was more of a dork... But it just worked that way for me. I didn't even go to a bar until I started dating Mike. I'm still not a huge partier, but I've tried a lot more and I'm more comfortable in bars and whatnot. I think I'll always be a dork in a lot of ways and there's not much I can do to change that, but ever since I've been out of college and things have fallen into place more with Mike and work, it's been great and I've been more confident in myself. I'm more outgoing and everything and it's overall really wonderful. Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting time doing fun things, though, which is silly. I mean, it's important to let loose and have fun. I just don't always like when I stay up late and sleep in. I feel like I'm wasting time. Funny, huh? I used to stay up until 5 in the morning and I never thought twice about sleeping til noon. Now, I feel like my life is more important and I try not to sleep my life away. I've gotten the whole "don't waste the daylight" mentality from Mike. When I was a kid, I always got up with my dad really early in the morning to help in the workshop and whatnot, but all of that changed in my teen years. It's coming back again as I'm becoming an adult (becoming more of an adult, I mean). The thing I have to always keep in mind is balance, though. I need to realize that it's okay to sleep in some days and get up early other days. I can't have identically productive days every day. It's just impossible and even if it wasn't, it would get so mundane and terrible. I think it's the same thing with sleep. Some days I feel like going back to sleep after Mike leaves for work (since I don't technically have to be up as early for work) and some days, I'm more awake and I play online, watch a couple episodes of Saved By the Bell or Fresh Prince, and do some housework. In the end, my productive and lazy days probably balance each other out. And that's all that matters.