today i came home from the beach and from mammoth ultimately.
it sucks
i want to go back to the beach
it's hot here and theres nothing to do
i have no car and minimal friends i can actually stand long enough to actually hang out

why did you come back if its so horrible you ask?
because im a 23 yr old snowboard instructor living season to season with assistance from unemployment and family just trying to get by and live the dream

i have so many and absolutely nothing to do
i could find a job
but i dont have to
i could sell my art
but i dont want to
i want to go to europe
but i cant afford it
i want to go to seattle
but i dont need to - just want

so what am i going to do?
probably sit here daily and write about how much my life sucks
loathe those in love
wallow in my loneliness
and "wish" i could have everything i want and so absolutely nothing to get it.

writing one page was a lot easier than i thought.
apparently i have more useless shit to type about than i knew.
end.