Today I got stood up by some weird and likely perverted guy off the internet. I met him off of one of those weird ass casual sex groups which I have no real idea of why I chose to join. It's not like I hook up with people for casual sex or anything. And, maybe it wasn't a casual sex group. It could have been from one of those Toronto area sex addicts groups I am in. I enjoy joining groups which make me feel boldly Satanic. Groups for badass Satanic girls like me. I like to defy convention and be a boldly expressive person.
I guess it might be a shame that this guy never showed up. Could be a shame. He probably would have been all over me and trying to tear my clothes off and shit. He probably is a pervert as he seemed very sexual and offered to help me take a shower. I don't know. I was kind of bored and thought it might be neat to meet somebody new. He even said he was going to bring wine over.
I only waited for about 10 minutes or so. Then I went out and played ball with some of the guys around the building. Short John, the other Jonathan, Vince, Kevin and Raol all played too. I was dressed more in a skirt, but played ball anyway. I didn't play any soccer because I was wearing open-toed shoes. I had a couple of beers and smoked a few joints.
I am under a mild bit of stress related to money. Oh, how quickly the ODSP check goes and I don't have that little bit of income from that job I was doing anymore. I kind of feel better being at home and doing my own thing on the internet anyway. I skipped everything at the WCC tonight and it is partly due to the fact that I don't feel like spending $6 on bus money. I've only got about $12 in my bank account and money is taking forever to show up in my pay pal account. It's kind of frustrating. Especially now that I am down to having no weed and I rely on it to help me mellow out and take the edge off my anxiety.
I guess it might be a shame that this guy never showed up. Could be a shame. He probably would have been all over me and trying to tear my clothes off and shit. He probably is a pervert as he seemed very sexual and offered to help me take a shower. I don't know. I was kind of bored and thought it might be neat to meet somebody new. He even said he was going to bring wine over.
I only waited for about 10 minutes or so. Then I went out and played ball with some of the guys around the building. Short John, the other Jonathan, Vince, Kevin and Raol all played too. I was dressed more in a skirt, but played ball anyway. I didn't play any soccer because I was wearing open-toed shoes. I had a couple of beers and smoked a few joints.
I am under a mild bit of stress related to money. Oh, how quickly the ODSP check goes and I don't have that little bit of income from that job I was doing anymore. I kind of feel better being at home and doing my own thing on the internet anyway. I skipped everything at the WCC tonight and it is partly due to the fact that I don't feel like spending $6 on bus money. I've only got about $12 in my bank account and money is taking forever to show up in my pay pal account. It's kind of frustrating. Especially now that I am down to having no weed and I rely on it to help me mellow out and take the edge off my anxiety.
